I can't believe that the time has come to publish this post. Our little Kyle Joseph came 5 weeks early on August 4th at 6:21 p.m.. We were blessed to be able to hold him for over an hour before he went from our arms to the arms of Jesus. There are no words to describe our feelings then or even now. The only thing that we can say is that our Heavenly Father has been our strength and gives us hope.
There are days when we feel as though the pain is so raw and so excruciating, but our God continues to pick us up off the floor and carries us agan and again. When we feel as though there is no joy left to be found in this life, we look into the eyes of our perfect little girl and can't help but smile and be grateful for her and for eachother.
We are constantly overwhelmed by the support and love that we have received from all of our friends and family. Thank you to all of you; those we have met and those we haven't. We have felt your prayers and your love. We have felt the comfort of Christ through you. Please continue to pray for us. This journey is not over for us. We need renewed strength everyday.
For those of you that were not able to go to Kyle's memorial, this is the letter we wrote and had read:
On January 5th of this year we were elated to find out that we were going to be parents again. Two months later we were told the devastating news that our precious baby boy would pass away shortly after being born. We were shocked and we had no words to describe the pain that we were feeling. We decided to enjoy every moment of our pregnancy that we possibly could. We took joy in every kick and hiccup and we named our sweet boy Kyle Joseph.
To our Heavenly Father...
We thank You for the time you gave us with our Kyle and we trust that he is in Your perfect hands. You have heard our deepest despair, You have seen our pain. You know the tears we have shed and You have comforted us in the midst of the storm. Continue to heal us and bring us joy in this storm. We long for the day when this world will fade away and You will make all things new. You will wipe away every tear, every hurt, every heartache. We thank You that because Your son died, our son lives with You and we will be reunited with him again. We yearn for the day when our family, whole and complete, will stand around Your throne of glory, worshiping forever and ever. Until then, we are Yours here on earth. Continue to be our Rock, our Shelter, our Peace, and our every Need.
To our Son...
Words cannot express the grief that we feel after losing you, but we have hope of one day seeing you again. We want you to know how deeply we love you and hold dear the moments, while short, we had you. We take joy in the fact that you are now in the arms of Jesus and will never know the pains of this world. You will always be missed, always loved, always cherished. And though we know you are in a better place, we still yearn to hold you in our arms and kiss your sweet face. We love you dearest Kyle and look forward to the time will see you again.
All our love now and forever,
Daddy, Mommy, and Big Sister Rowen
She was so excited to wear her "big girl backpack"!
"Mommy stop taking pictures and come on!"
"Faster Daddy, faster!"
When we arrived, the first place she went to was the "kitchen" to "cook".
This was what she was still doing when we left.
All ready and packed to go home!
"Momma, Daddy, I made HAT!!!" And when we asked if she had fun, this is the smile we got!
